So... This week has been rough. I am not going to lie. There were some miracles and amazing things that happened though, so I will end on those :)
It all started last week. For some reason all of this anxiety hit and I was terrified to be going to Africa. Not only that, but I was just feeling overwhelmed and so unqualified to be doing the Lord's work.... Satan truly wants to make us miserable. It got to the point where I threw up I was so nervous. My body has never gotten that worked up and I just felt awful. I slept all of Wednesday morning and finally felt good enough to go to class. I received a healing blessing from the District leader. That is what gave me strength to go forward. I also got a comfort blessing from our branch president and that has helped me a lot. Also, Jesus Christ will help us through anything, and I know he was helping me every single day this week.
It is kind of ironic looking back, because now I am being delayed going to Zimbabwe... if I only didn't make myself so sick! ;) haha just kidding! My visa hasn't gone through, so I am checking back in with the travel office on Wednesday. They said it is highly likely that I will be here for another week before they would reassign me. So continued prayers for my visa to be accepted!!! It was really difficult having to see my district leave and I was left here. But I am trying to stay positive, and will find the reason why the Lord has me here, I know there is a reason. I am in a trio with two sisters that are in my zone. I am also living out of my suitcases because I had to switch rooms. I am not unpacking, because when they say I am leaving, I want to be READY! I am familiar with these two sisters, and they are really sweet, but they aren't Sister Fitzgerald, Sister Wood, or Sister Horner. I loved those sisters so much!!! I am sure they are just doing amazing in Texas right now.
I do not know when I am leaving, but I will try and send you my flight plans, mom, so you know when I will call you.
Onto more happier things!!!!! CONFERENCE WAS AMAZING! The Lord is speaking to us right now and we need to heed his council given by through Prophet. It was so powerful when he said that if we simply call the church, Christ's church, we will receive blessings from the Lord like we have never seen before. We will be able to reach all nations, kindreds, and tongues if we call his church by HIS name. That is soooo powerful!!! I also loved the general women's session. It made me so excited to be a mom. I know it will be a while, but I have had so many amazing examples of mothers in my life. I cannot wait to be one just like them. And especially you, Mom, you're the best mama out there. Also 12 new temples?! That is amazing! I bet Megan jumped for joy knowing that Cambodia is getting one
This gospel is so good.
I am going to give a run down of how Saturday went. We loaded the buses and headed to Salt Lake. When we got there, we went into this practice room that was kind of below the conference center. I got to hear the announcement of two hour church!!! But then they turned off the broadcast and we started preparing. They checked us and made sure we all looked good. We practiced and then we ate a boxed lunch the church made. I wonder if Aunt Kathy made some ;) After that, we got all lined up and headed into the conference center. Then all of the General Authorities waved at us and some even came on the stand. They were not shaking hands, but I was like 5 feet away from Elder Holland. Pretty cool!!! When we sang, it was so powerful. I have been sent lots of pictures from people, but I am just glad that the Lord chose me to sing in that choir and be a true representative of Jesus Christ. I will never forget how amazing that was.
The biggest miracle that happened this week blew my mind. There is no way that this happened without some divine intervention. On Sunday, I was really discouraged. By then I knew I wasn't leaving with my district and was probably staying at the MTC for longer. Our branch president and his wife were at the devotional that night, and wanted us to come say goodbye. (I love them so much, they are so amazing.) When I went to go hug Sister Garlick she said," Do you know anyone with the last name of Tullis?" I was shocked and said," Ummmm YES!" She then explained this. The Garlick's were going to go to general conference with President's sister and brother in law. They are from Canada and noticed the roads were getting really bad, so they decided to head home early. Because of that, the Garlicks' had two extra tickets. They were looking around, trying to decide who to give the tickets too. President Garlick looked right at a couple and said them. Crazy enough, it was YSABEL TULLIS AND TYLER WALTERS. As they found their seats, Sister Garlick asked where they were from. They said Boise area, and so Sister Garlick pulled out her book with all of the missionaries in their zone. They saw the picture of me and then made the connection. Ysabel wrote me the sweetest note and it made my entire week. I needed that so much, and I cried when Sister Garlick handed me the note.
I just want to end my email with my testimony. I know for a fact there are no coincidences in life. Heavenly Father is aware of each of us and our needs. He loves us and shows us his love. We just have to find those ways. I will be patient and trust that the Lord's timing is everything. I love you all and I love my Savior. Thank you for your support, love, and prayers!
I screamed when I came outside and saw Christmas lights!
Lots of love,
Sister Kershaw
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